My favorite review to date…

stayawayI know it’s been ages since I’ve checked in, but the author side of my life had to fall by the wayside when my day job took over. For the first time in over a year, I popped onto Amazon and Goodreads to see if people were still reading Flawed and how they were feeling about the book.

You guys are still reading. And holy hell, you’re responding!

I’m so incredibly grateful that Flawed has found a place in so many readers’ lives. Nothing makes me happier than seeing the raw emotions the book evokes, even if the reader wound up hating the story. The fact that someone chose to spend their time on a book I love still blows my mind, even two years later. I’ll never be able to thank you all enough.

Today, I stumbled across a review that reminded me why I wrote the book in the first place, and highlights the underlying issue I was trying to address. It’s not my place to tell readers how to interpret what they’ve read, and I love that part of the magic of writing/reading is that no two people will get the same thing from a story. That said, it’s always a treat when someone sees the same thing I did. Thank you, Autumn, for your lovely review!

So this is a really hard book for me to rate, because so much of what I took away from it was colored by what I saw others saying about it. Maybe that doesn’t make sense. Let me try again.

This was a good book. It was powerfully written and either Kate Avelynn has experience with abusive relationships, or she’s done an absolutely incredible and insightful research project. Spot on in terms of accuracy, holy cheez whiz Batman. I actually had to take a break about two-thirds of the way through to get some emotional distance, and it’s been a few weeks now since I finished it – it’s taken me a while to calm down enough to write a review.

So the book is great. What’s the problem, then?

The problem is I read the reviews.

You guys, the reviews scared the sweet banana wrappers out of me. I had to have a glass of bourbon; I almost cried.

Specifically, I read a lot of talk about how this “wasn’t a story of hope” and a LOT of debating over the “love triangle” between James and Sam, and how James is messed up but it’s such a hard decision to make!


Dude. It isn’t a love triangle. No no no no NO. James does not love anyone, much less his sister. It is not a love triangle. It is not romantic. THIS IS NOT LOVE.

*deep breath*

What James does to Sarah? That is textbook abuse. I mean literally, I have read textbooks. It is like, heartbreakingly accurate, point-for-point, paint-by-numbers abuse. He talks a lot about how much he loves Sarah, but every time she has an opinion or a need or a feeling he doesn’t like, he withdraws that love.

Oh, you don’t like me getting high? You want to go home? Fine, I will leave you alone with dangerous strangers to punish you and it will be your fault. That is not love.

You can’t have your own happiness. You cannot be independent, or have a job, or have any agency in your life. You want to go to school? No. That is not allowed. That is. Not. Love.

You may not have friends. You may not have feelings I don’t know about and approve of. You may not have boundaries. THAT IS NOT LOVE.

When you love someone, you don’t punish them for having needs. You don’t abandon them in the woods and then fly into a rage because they thwarted your “punishment” by letting someone protect them. He intended for Sarah to spend the remainder of that party alone and frightened and miserable, and a huge factor in his anger stemmed from the fact that it backfired.

In the end, though, Flawed does have a hopeful ending. The specifics of the ending (trying hard to avoid hardcore spoilers) sucked. It would have been nice if that hadn’t gone down the way it did. But…from a literary standpoint, I kind of think it was necessary. Sarah was still incredibly passive. Maybe she would have left James (I have my doubts, but theoretically speaking here). Would she have learned to fight for herself instead of letting someone else save her? Would she have learned that you can’t save anyone else, and no one can save you? Would she have forgiven herself?

Eventually, maybe. But reading her growth after a year of grieving is a hell of a lot more satisfying than the more common ending, which usually involves years of therapy, codependent relationships, and tragedy.

I really wish this book had an author’s note at the end, making the abuse message more explicit and providing resources for further education and/or help for those who need it. Reading it, I thought the point of James’s controlling behavior was incredibly clear, but reading about what others took from it…I think it needs to be dropped like an anvil. We glorify and romanticize abuse enough that it can be hard to spot; pointing out the difference and repeating that “abuse is not love” is still a long way from being irrelevant.

Per Autumn’s request, here is my author’s note.

Abuse is not love. It’s not. And it breaks my heart when I see someone seeking out “love” without questioning the strings attached. Add to that the desperation of someone who has suffered abuse at that hand of another, and the need to be loved is incredibly powerful. So powerful, it blinds you to the truth. This goes for Sarah as well as James.

“The greater the power, the more dangerous the abuse.” -Edmund Burke

Abuse doesn’t have to be physical. If the person you love is isolating you, making sure you’re dependent on them, withdrawing their love when you do something they don’t like, or telling you that no one will love you the way they do, this is not love. If you’re not ready to walk away, or if you don’t think you’re strong enough to walk away on your own, talk to someone who can help.

“People think being alone makes you lonely, but I don’t think that’s true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.” -Kim Culbertson

Be safe. Be loved. And always, be true to yourself.

#YASH teams revealed!

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The Spring 2013 YA Scavenger Hunt authors have been revealed and I’ve made the cut! Go BLUE TEAM! You can find me and the first chapter of Alex’s book hidden somewhere on one of my teammate’s sites. The hunt begins April 4th and ends at noon PST on April 7th. Check out the author line up and get ready to start hunting!






















































Watch out for more updates to come.

FLAWED Blog Tour deets!

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Follow along and comment for a chance to win one of the daily prizes, and enter the accompanying Rafflecopter contest as often as you can to be entered in the Win the Ultimate FLAWED Fan Pack contest!


Official FLAWED Tour Stops
1/22 – A Good Addiction
Topic: Interview with Sam Donavon
Prize: FLAWED dog tag and tattoos
Winner: Vivien

1/23 – Mandie Baxter’s blog
Topic: Writing about tough and/or taboo subjects
Prize: $15 B&N or Amazon gift card (International)
Winner: Suzi

1/24 – Two Chicks on Books
Topic: Interview between the author and her heroine Sarah O’Brien.
Prize: Winner’s choice—large book charm on a silver necklace, or small book charm on a bracelet.
Winner: Amy

1/25 – My Pathway to Books
Topic: Balancing romance in dark YA.
Prize: FLAWED swag pack (dog tag, tattoos, guitar pick, magnet)
Winner: Jena

1/28 – Jus Accardo’s blog
Topic: Visual stimulation inspiration (aka PICTURES OF SAM and JAMES!)
Prize: $15 iTunes gift card (International)
Winner: Artemis

1/29 – Shortie Says
Topic: Jena interviews Kate about her inspiration for the book and digs for personal details
Prize: FLAWED swag pack (tattoos, guitar pick, magnet) and a $5 iTunes gift card.
Winner: Vivian

1/30 – Words, Pages and Books
Topic: Jessirae interviews Sam and Sarah
Prize: Small book charm on a bracelet, and a FLAWED dog tag.
Winner: Maryann

1/31 – Talk Supe
Topic: Cimmaron interviews Kate about her writing process and life after FLAWED.
Prize: $15 B&N or Amazon gift card (International)
Winner: Jena

2/1 – Kelley York’s blog
Topic: Entangled TEEN’s two dark YA authors talk about the darker side of YA.
Prize: eBook copies of FLAWED and HUSHED (International)
Winner: M. Andrew Patterson

2/4 – Making the Grade
Topic: Interview with James O’Brien
Prize: $15 iTunes gift card (International)
Winner: Grace Lo

2/5 – The Reader’s Den
Topic: Jasprit interviews Sarah O’Brien
Prize: Winner’s choice—large book charm on a silver necklace, or small book charm on a bracelet.
Winner: Brandi

2/6 – Jamie Manning’s blog
Topic: Interview with Kate
Prize: $15 B&N or Amazon gift card (International)
Winner: Jena

2/7 – Just a Booklover
Topic: Jessica puts Sam and James in the same room for an interview. Daring girl, that Jessica.
Prize: FLAWED dog tag and a $5 iTunes gift card
Winner: Kahzy

2/8 – The Book Sophisticate
Topic: Kate’s experience with writing the book and her path to publication.
Prize: $15 B&N or Amazon gift card (International)
Winner: Pavan

Remember! Each day, one lucky commenter (as chosen by will win the prize listed for that stop. Daily prize winners will be announced on the last day of the tour. In the meantime, don’t forget to enter the Rafflecopter giveaway for a chance to win the Ultimate FLAWED Fan Pack! In addition to the usual ways to enter (I like to make things easy), you’ll be able to count your comments on the blog tour stops as entries, too!
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And the winner is…

Last month, me and my fantabulous crit partner Jus Accardo held an epic contest in which the winner would receive ebook copies of all of our books, mega swag packs, and will get to create a character to be used in the super secret project Jus and I are writing together. We’re a few days late, but has finally chosen our winner.

Congratulations to Sandra of JeanzBookReadNReview!

We will be contacting you with instructions on how to claim your prize. Thank you to everyone who participated and be on the lookout for another major contest from me coming this next week when FLAWED goes on tour!
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An announcement…and an epic joint contest!

2012 has been crazy good to me. FLAWED, a book that’s very close to my heart, has been released into the world—and people seem to really like it! While I’m gobsmacked by the reactions I’ve gotten, I’m most grateful for the readers I’ve met. That you guys believe the stuff I bleed onto the page matters means a lot to me. And because I’m me, all these fluffy feelings can only mean one thing: I’m giving stuff away!

But first, an announcement that’s pretty freaking awesome.

Awhile back, I called Jus Accardo with the lyrics to a song I’d just heard and the seed of what I hoped would become a story we’d write together. We took that little seed and developed it until we had something that combined my darkness and her creativity into a story that’s deceptively light (we are talking about me, here), thought-provoking, and extremely original. Exactly what you’d expect when an author who writes quirky paranormal romance teams up with someone who writes dark and twisty contemporary.

I never stopped thinking about the story. Neither did Jus. So last week we made a decision: We’re going to write the book, and it will be epic.

The catch? We want you guys to be part of it.

Jus and I are holding a contest/casting call with more than a dozen ways to enter. In addition to receiving ebook copies of all our books (Flawed, Touch, Untouched, and Toxic) and a full complement of swag from the two of us, the winner will get to create a character for the book. Name, appearance, character tics…everything. You can even be the character if you want. Our only caveat is that you not ask us to write a pink polka-dotted elephant (or the equivalent) into the story. Think contemporary YA and the kind of characters that come with the genre.

We can’t tell you guys anything about the story just yet, but we can share the song that started it all.

Intrigued? Enter the contest below for your chance to create a character in the book!

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Entangled Under the Mistletoe

What happens when more than 50 authors gather under a sprig of mistletoe?
You win free books, of course!

Don’t forget to check out what the other
authors participating in the hop are giving away!


  • An ebook copy of FLAWED, my new release

  • A print copy of any of Entangled’s print titles

I’ll be using The Book Depository to purchase your print book, so make sure you live in a country they ship to before entering. Chances are good that you’re eligible!

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FLAWED is here!

Happy Black Friday, everyone! As promised, the ebook of FLAWED is live on Amazon and Barnes & Noble.

I’m so completely in awe of the response to the book so far. Thank you to all the bloggers who devoured the ARCs immediately and wrote what have to be the most fantastic emails and reviews ever!

Want a taste of the book? My publisher has posted an excerpt HERE.

What people are saying…

“Intense, dark, painful, wrenching and stunning, FLAWED is a fabulous debut that dances in the gray areas in the most perfect of ways. This book is one that will leave readers so completely twisted, and utterly drained emotionally by the time the gamut is over.”
A Good Addition

“This book shattered me into a million pieces. It’s beautiful and intense and earth shattering. Flawed takes love and twists it into something deadly.”
Shortie Says

“Beautiful and devastating all wrapped in one heart shattering, soul moving book. Flawed broke me, crushed me whole and devoured my every being. Kate Avelynn created a book so powerful, so gut wrenching.. nothing will ever be the same.”
Words, Pages, and Books

Flawed was one of the best debuts I’ve read, and everyone who reads this book will fall in love with the chemistry between the characters and the intense plot.”
Stuck in YA Books

“An extremely powerful story that’s impossible to classify, Flawed is a book that is compulsively readable despite its depth. There are some books you know you’ll never forget – for me, this is one of them.”
– USA TODAY bestselling author Cari Quinn

“Gorgeously written, achingly bittersweet, FLAWED addresses the deeply complex nature of abuse and its heartbreaking effects on a family.”
Christa Desir, author of FAULT LINE (Simon Pulse, 2013)

Darkly moving, expertly written, FLAWED grabs you by the heart from the first page and doesn’t let go.
New York Times bestselling author Lori Wilde